O God, how often I stray from you. How often I put other things before you. O God, I will die, leave this earth, and leave all disappointments and all success, all my pleasures, and all my work. Even with my body, I must depart. Nothing of this world matters after this imminent day of death. Why then, O Lord, do I put such things before you? Why are you not my sole desire and love? Why is it not you that I place before my eyes every hour of the day? You give me, dear Lord, everything that is good. Why then should I not offer everything I can back to you? What are we on earth for but to serve, love, and glorify you? Why do I falter and stray? Why do I reject your mercy, most loving Father? By your grace, may I always set you before my eyes. May I always only seek you and what is eternal. For what can bring us happiness but you, my God? May I always seek, and find you. May I abandon myself and all my unworthy pursuits into your loving embrace and mercy and will. For your will alone, I desire. May your will be mine, O dearest Father.
August 21, 2014
The third entry in young Isaac’s journal (age 15)